Findin our groove

Over the holidays, Tina and I spent about a month straight together: part of it in Vancouver and part of it here in the Bay Area. Last summer we spent almost 3 weeks together in Hawaii. So in a sense, we've already sampled out cohabitation, and it's been very very cool. Yet that time together still doesn't compare to life now. Maybe it's because back then we were in vacation mode. Or maybe because back then, come sunday or monday, Tina or I would have to face the sad fact that one of us had to leave to head back home. And because it might be weeks before we saw each other again, we relished every moment together, enjoying every little minute of each other's company.

Now, Tina's been here for over a week, and we've been doing a good job settling down! Yet, deep within, the feeling lingers that the old pattern will continue and one of us has to leave...bringing us back to marriage via airplane trips, over phone lines or email, and through Internet cameras. I suppose this is because our relationship, from the beginning, has been a long-distance one. We even had to do it for the first 8 months of our marriage :(

Last night, as Tina was getting ready for bed and I was getting ready for the next day's work, I looked over at Tina and realized "wow...i'm not going anywhere and neither is tina...this is what our life is gonna be like...this is really it." as i watched tina tidy up around the room, it dawned on me that i didn't have to worry anymore about us splitting apart...our life together was well on it's way...in holidays, in vacations, in the day-to-day mundane; and i've never felt more at peace, more sure about anything in all of my life...